Stay at home. Oh, how I love the sound of those words. I have trained my whole life to stay at home, now that training is coming in very handy. 

Admittedly,  I never thought staying at home would be a world-wide event but I decided to take full advantage of it. I am doing a bible study on Kingdom Discipleship written by Bunni Pounds, a good friend and founder of Christians Engaged.

I needed something structured to take my focus off the news and all the corona information. I don’t know about you but I am really tired of hearing about Corona. It seems that you can’t look anywhere without seeing something about that virus. 

It has been amazing to watch at just how quickly our world and our nation have changed. For us, our business is at a standstill and we are refocusing and readjusting to find new revenue streams. It is something that we have talked about but have not done, well now is the time to do it. 

Honestly, I have had moments of panic and anxiety. It doesn’t help that we had a dog neutered and he has been wearing a cone. I think Riley’s cone bothered me more than it did him. 

Dogs in cones are just really pathetic. I just can’t help but feel sorry for them. But that aside, not knowing what the future holds is difficult, especially for those of us who like a plan. 

David and I both have started over many times but this is a little different. We are starting over in a new world, things are different and people are different. Life as we know it has changed. 

  • Will we see an increase in government control? 
  • How will this affect public gatherings? 
  • What impact will it have on churches? On schools? 
  • How will people change? 
  • What lessons will we learn from this and has this forced sabbatical been a time for people to reassess their priorities? 
  • How will I be different? 
  • What will I learn?

As I mentioned, I started this study on Kingdom Discipleship and our  Day 1 exercise focused on the rich young ruler in Mark 10:17-22 The exercise asked us what the Lord wanted us to lay down in order to follow Him. What was hindering us from following Him completely? 

As I thought about this, I realized that at every season in life there is something new to lay down. I let educational pursuits, athletic endeavors, and even religious activity define me. I realized that during this current season I need to lay down my expectations for the future. I have struggled with believing that the Lord will provide for me yet He always has. The fear of the unknown is strong in my life. 

I have no idea what the future holds, of course, no one else does either. We can plan but things can change in an instant. We truly have no choice but to trust the Lord. 

The Holy Spirit told me to write a while ago. I have been faithful to do that but I truly didn’t see myself doing it full-time. Now I am choosing to pursue writing as a future profession. I have many ideas for books and journals. My mission is to share the hope found in Jesus Christ and demonstrate the sufficiency of scripture in all situations.

I want to follow Christ fully without reservation. I don’t know how that looks but I do know that I am writing a lot. My mind tells me that it is foolish to spend time writing and that there is no way I can ever make any money doing it. But my heart jumps at the thought of writing. 

On New Year’s Eve, I had a prophetic word spoken over me and she said I was to write, Write and WRITE. She had no idea that I had been working on a book A 40-Day Journey to Find Hope. She had no idea that I have several other books near completion. 

The funny part is that I didn’t realize how much I have written over the years. I have 3 almost-finished books. I just never finished them because I did not see myself as a writer.

I have no idea how things will work out. David’s future is changing also. For years he has been about creating art that glorified the Lord. It seems as if that season is nearing an end, not that he will stop doing art, it will just change. He is focusing on a new business venture and creating beautiful custom pieces for people. 

I have learned that this quarantine exposes our weaknesses. It causes us to rally around ourselves and look within. It is amazing how easily influenced we are with both the news and social media. You can feel fear in the air.

I choose to follow Him. I choose to lay down my expectations and set aside my thinking. I choose to renew my mind according to His Word. I choose to go where He is leading me.

What about you?

This quarantine exposes our weaknesses. It causes us to rally around ourselves and look within. It is amazing how easily influenced we are by both the news and social media. You can feel fear in the air. It’s time to look up and lean on Him.

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